God is so good to teach and grow me through this journey through His Word and His Spirit with the help, correction and encouragement of loved ones in my biological, spiritual and neighboring family! He keeps coming back to a few themes: being still and waiting on Him.
And that can be hard lesson for a girl who’s MO is GO, not slow, I didn’t hear you if you said no (at least that’s what my husband always tells me🤓), just push through & do! My sweet sisters (both nurses as well) keep trying to remind me of these lessons from afar (Colorado and Georgia), utilizing local reinforcements. With my blood counts dropping again, my ankle continuing to swell (from the injury I incurred playing Capture the Flag on our fun Fourth in CO), taking on too many extras (like picking up home health overnight shifts right before and after chemo, another weekly discipleship commitment, entertaining other job opportunities, hiking dates, etc), trying to help the boys learn, adjust to, work with their new online school regimen, manage our home well (so my dear hubby who has a full work plate doesn’t have to!) and not doing any of it very well, I had to admit some changes were needed...
I fought it, resisted, kicking and screaming🏃🏼♀️ (on the inside) because I saw it as a challenge and I wanted to be able to rise to the challenge and prove to myself I could!
That was until my dear sisters and close friends stepped up and in (again! I can be pretty thick-headed🙈) fulfilling Proverbs 27:6 to “wound” me with wonderful words of wise counsel. They helped me change my perspective and see that this is an awesome opportunity to push myself to grow in areas I need and want to vs not push or pushing less.
... like learning
-to be still & quiet so I can listen to Him and hear through His Word as I take time to read carefully, thoughtfully and reflectively to know and understand who He is more and who I am in light of that!
...to just be in His precious presence, not do. My identity in Christ, who I truly am internally and eternally, isn’t affected by my actions (or lack thereof)
...That saying No to one thing means yes to another, and choosing the best yes!
...that slowing my body down and being still doesn’t mean less productive but even more so in different, possibly better ways!
...that less moving can mean more mind-full!
...that transformation can take place in the waiting, when the waiting is on Him! Like a seed firmly planted & well watered grows, becomes a well-rooted plant and produces a valuable harvest in the Son’s Light!
...that I can read and write a whole lots of great words while I’m still!
...that slower can mean deeper, wider, better, richer!
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