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Halfway down Radiation Road

 today was day 18/33! Just over halfway there! I saw my radiation oncologist yesterday as I do every Tuesday after my treatment and she said how pleased she was with how it looked.  “Oh, It looks good. Yeah, it actually looks really good! Wow.  I mean I’d want to see something to know it’s working or I’d give you another bolus.” That’s where they put a mesh sheet over the area to increase or concentrate the radiation especially on the skin.

That was super uplifting! Thank You, Lord, for that good report and practical encouragement! You are so good to give us little gifts like that!

I’ve actually been totally at peace knowing my whole life, yesterday, today and tomorrow are in the palm of His capable, caring hands! In that unchanging truth, I can rest...assured! And be still (mostly mentally with my concerns, emotionally with my feelings and spiritually with my trust in Him as I want to get moving and grooving more physically again as I heal! I am so ready to set a goal, sign up for & start training for a marathon, triathlon or endurance race but think waiting and trusting in His goal for me right now as there are no races to sign up for right now.  “He makes all things beautiful in His time.” Ecc. 3:11 another one of my favorite verses bc of the challenge it is as it often involves waiting...I’m still a work in progress!)

This has been such a great litmus test for my faith.  I can say I believe this or that about the character and attributes of God, but my feelings are a great picture of what I truly believe at the deepest level.  They expose and shed light on the inside.  They get to the core of my heart & reveal what’s really going on, what in fact I truly believe about my God.  The Bible tells me He is all-knowing, all-powerful, all-good, all-loving and shows me how He’s demonstrated that in the lives of Biblical characters as well as so many others in history. I’ve even seen it clearly in my own life in the past. Do I trust Him to be who He says He is and do what He says He’ll do?

“From an overflow of the heart, the mouth speaks” (Matthew 12:34) and the body acts. The Great Reveal of what I really believe about God and my trust in Him is in my feelings... and the actions that flow from that. If I truly believe what He says & has shown about Himself, how can I fear the outcome of radiation, good or bad, or my future with this diagnosis?  

I can’t!! 🙌

Jeremiah 29:11 ESV

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Joshua 1:8-9 ESV

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:8-9 ESV

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:8-9 ESV

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”


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